New lands..

I'm rather taken aback. So much discovered so quickly. I feel overwhelmed, too much has happened at once. I think I could be content with the lands I already know for awhile, still. I hate this feeling.. I just want to give up and sit around because there's so much I want to do and I cannot figure where to begin! Perhaps.. I should just find one favourite area and stick with it. It doesn't help me that there are so many others running around these new lands.. I feel almost claustrophobic. That in itself is odd, though.. considering the lands are in the sky.

Oh! The form of travel! The clouds moving me are rather unnerving! An itty bitty cloud beneath my feet is far from reassuring that I will not fall! Oh, Stars! Scares the living starlight out of my soul every time I have to use one.. Oh, how I wish to stay on ground. If you know me.. you know how clumsy I am and how often I fall.

For now, I'll try to keep my emotions under control and continue to explore. Normally.. I would not be so eager to figure out my maps.. but it seems I get left behind so often on things. I'm going to try to stay on top of at least that.. so I can know where I'm going. One day, the fact that I do not achieve everything that is handed to me with an overzealous passion will be looked past. One day, I'll be considered a respectable and intelligent wizard. I just hope that doesn't mean I have to stop having fun.

Oh, the Stars!
Jaipehg

Oh, the Stars!

I look up to the night's sky as of late and I see the stars - they've gone so active! I see shooting stars at least every minute! The stars - they burn so bright! Oh, I do wonder what this is a sign of. Dear Stars, let me know your will!

Anskiere has told me he plans to move to Freeport, once he is able. I am not sure what I think of this - but I do not think I could follow. Will this end our marriage? Perhaps, although I cannot say. Him feeling the need to be so far away, though.. The Stars will tell. Of course, I wish the best for him, no matter what. Maybe this is one of the reasons why they are driving so hard. My fate is twisted, it seems. Full of turns ahead. I fear being alone, and while I do not fear Freeport, I fear leaving mum behind. No.. I do not think I can do this.

I've not done much but random wandering, lately. A few odd jobs here and there, a couple of taskss for the Company.. just keeping myself busy. I tried attending a social event within the Company.. I stayed for maybe ten minutes. I felt so out of place an uncomfortable. So many people to look down upon me.. I'll find a purpose sooner or later, I think.

Oh, the Stars!
Jaipehg

What to say...

I haven't logged many adventures lately. It's not that I've been too busy, because I often just find myself wandering around the harbor thinking to myself.

I don't think I want to stay in Qeynos any longer. The place bothers me. I have a fear I may have been tainted from all of my travels... I am not the young wizard I started out as. No.. now that I think about it, I am... I'm just realizing it now. I've always been this way. The loss of my father whom I never knew in this life, and my mother, killed by Lucan's betrayal in the Battle of Defiance.

And I want to seek refuge in Freeport? Am I thinking clearly? Yes... I don't belong in Qeynos. Everyone is too happy, everyone is has some diluted cheery outlook about the future of Norrath.

So... I'll begin preperations. I'm sure there is much to be done, and this isn't going to be a simple task. I have doubts that Jai will follow me into the walls of Freeport, however...

But there is no doubt, I have my resolve. To Freeport the first chance I get, to finally join together with the mass of my mercenary troope.


For power and profit!

Anskiere Arkenarn